Goodbye to our North Carolina Home

Well, we signed the official paperwork to sell our house yesterday.  It has been notarized and sent back to North Carolina.  I figure the paperwork won't get there until tomorrow evening at the earliest.  The final closing process probably won't occur until Tuesday, at the earliest.  By this time next week the whole process should be over. 

I have to say the last few days have been very depressing for me.  In all reality, this should be a time of rejoicing, but my pride, and my desires have been getting in the way.  I should rejoice that God has faithfully provided for us in so many unexpected and undeserved ways.  He has made sure that all of our needs and even some of our wants have been met.  So why am I sick at my stomach?  Maybe it is because, once again, I had everything figured out and things didn't go my way.  Maybe because I put too many hopes and dreams into things that I couldn't control.  Maybe my focus is on this world and what I think I need in it to make me happy and secure.  Maybe it is all of those things.  So I am doing what I can to remind myself of God's goodness, His faithfulness, His provisions, His unfailing love for me.  Someone has stepped up and is buying our house.  I trust that they will love it and take care of it.  I trust they will be good neighbors to our old neighbors.  I trust that God will continue to provide for us here.  One day we will have to find a house of our own and when that day comes, God who is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow will be there to help us along.